Today's DailyOM

I really love getting my dose of DailyOM in my mail. Today's reading speaks to me so loudly. Yoga is less about being a contortionist and more about walking the tight rope of life with faith, courage and steady thoughts of peace...

August 20, 2010

Without a Net
Living Life with Trust

Living life without a net can be just what we need to step outside of ourselves and make the choices we need most.

As we create the life of our dreams, we often reach a crossroads where the choices seem to involve the risk of facing the unknown versus the safety and comfort of all that we have come to trust. We may feel like a tightrope walker, carefully teetering along the narrow path to our goals, sometimes feeling that we are doing so without a net. Knowing we have some backup may help us work up the courage to take those first steps, until we are secure in knowing that we have the skills to work without one. But when we live our lives from a place of balance and trust in the universe, we may not see our source of support, but we can know that it is there.

If we refuse to act only if we can see the safety net, we may be allowing the net to become a trap as it creates a barrier between us and the freedom to pursue our goals. Change is inherent in life, so even what we have learned to trust can surprise us at any moment. Remove fear from the equation and then, without even wondering what is going on below, we can devote our full attention to the dream that awaits us.

We attract support into our lives when we are willing to make those first tentative steps, trusting that the universe will provide exactly what we need. In that process we can decide that whatever comes from our actions is only for our highest and best experience of growth. It may come in the form of a soft landing, an unexpected rescue or an eye-opening experience gleaned only from the process of falling. So rather than allowing our lives to be dictated by fear of the unknown, or trying to avoid falling, we can appreciate that sometimes we experience life fully when we are willing to trust and fall. And in doing so, we may just find that we have the wings to fly.

When we believe that there is a reason for everything, we are stepping out with the safety net of the universe, and we know we will make the best from whatever comes our way.

Day -1 (Aug 19)

Flight delayed. I have 2 more hours to wait here at Gate 11... I miss my family already. Still, I am on my way to keep pursuing my dream. Somewhat delayed as well, but then again, it may not have come at a better time. Oh but I miss my husband and children.

It's 1:17 a.m. (in Manila). And 12:17 a.m. here in Bangkok. I am again at Louis' Tavern (USD89 for 4 hours with breakfast). I had to look for this place. There are apparently 3 of these transit hotels here. Need to remember: one floor up then go straight when you see Memories of Thailand at your right.

So here we are. Now time for bed.

Day 0 (Aug 20)

Up at 4:30 a.m. (Manila Time) I could have gotten the 6-hour stay so I could sleep in longer. But this is the yogi's happy hour, isn't it?

I am steeped in vague familiarity and, strangely enough, total newness. Already, the journey has me riveted. I am already so far away from yesterday and seemingly nearer to nine months ago. I am stepping into my spiral dream.

Just like before yet...

Waiting at Gate B4


You are right, Mr. Heraclitus. We really never step into the same river twice.

Easy Time Resort

After saying hello to YT, I moved to Easy Time Resort (this is where I'm staying for the night). It's a great place for resting, and judging from my constant sneezing, I'll need this day just for that...

I went to YT for lunch and saw old friends from the teacher training course back in November. Simone and Frederick and the family, Owen. The YT staff who warmly greeted me. And Paul and Jutima. I stayed awhile then went back to my room for a nap - a long one because it was 7pm when I woke up.

Dinner was at the nice Pizzeria and Missy was my virtual date. The rain poured after my last bite of eggplant parmigiana and I headed back with an umbrella to my Internet-less room. Time to read.

Tomorrow, I will wake up at 6 and practice at 7. And then I'm moving in my room at YT for Day 1.

And so I've decided.

Although that may not be entirely accurate. Let me rephrase by saying - It has been decided. I am going back to YT! I believe I am moving towards my dream. Synchronicity is happening in a harmonious confluence of events, my cycle days have adjusted so I will be un-red by the tim I get there.  I was able to reserve my slot in the nick of time. Best of all, I have (just starting today) finally begun assisting in class.

When I return, I will begin teaching in two more special places. =)

It's not always asanas....

My Pranayama Practice given by Paul last December 2009.

:)

Govinda Kai in August

Should I stay or should I go...No matter. It's just fantastic to have GK back...
Poster c/o Tesa :)

Nearing August

August is my time to retreat.

I have been so incredibly busy the past couple of months. It's strategy time in the jungle. I'm looking forward to a two-week leave to keep my heart and soul afloat. Govinda is in town for a workshop and retreat and the "Yoga Philosophy and Mantra, Gita, Sutras, Chanting and Sanskrit - A Real India Festival of Learning and Fun is happening in YT".  Now I need to figure out where I'm going and I need to decide by this week. My other option is to do one week for each... Of course, my resources are a consideration....

I will be where I am supposed to be.